I still haven't bought the pair of skimmers that I was dying to get since my last post. Just to remind that someone, aherm, or whoever is kind enough to get me a pair, I'm still shit out of luck! I had a new writing job, a side line, just so I can add up to my income and buy luxury (yes, I consider this luxury!) items like a pair of skimmers. Unfortunately, there area lot of bills to pay and finances to, erm, finance!

At this point, I'm still drooling over the photos and trying to wear them in my dreams. It's not really that I don't have the money to buy them at P1,100., just that I don't think I need them at this point. I'd rather save the money for future needs (rainy season, got to be ready), or get them as a gift from someone! Haha! It's more of a want, not a need sort of thing. But, but, but, wait! I got more, if that someone is not buying me those pairs because of the batch 1 designs, look they now have batch 2! I particularly like the retro design:

Retro

..and the sushi design! Hmm! Nomnomnom! They seem so comfy!

Sushi

Oh Punchdrunk Panda Skimmers, why'd you have to be so irresistible? Oh, someone, come hurry and buy me a pair!

Photos are from here.

He was supposed to spend Christmas at our home and I was supposed to spend the new year over at their place. Too bad sudden events and circumstances won't let us do so, but that is so not going to hinder us from celebrating Christmas together. The boyfriend went here in Manila because I wanted to. Loljk. He came down here so we could spend some time and celebrate early christmas together.

Baguio glues us like in a way that being apart from each other for a few weeks leaves us both miserable. It gives me sleepless nights and it makes him cold even in the morning. Hrhr. I'm being too cheesy again, zeh pornstar just wants to tell you how good the week was when he was here. :)

But since I'm too lazy to do so, in a detailed manner. I'll just show you a photo of us during that week. It will speak more than a thousand words, that I'm sure of. <3




See?

Disclaimer: Don't read further if you're allergic to cheese fest.

It's almost christmas and this is the only time I found to document all that has happened for the past days. Everything has been exhausting, fast but fun. But before everything else, I'd like to say that I'm so sad right now for babylove already departed for Baguio this afternoon and right at this moment he has already arrived.

Okay, so last Friday we had our Apollo Christmas party over at Lalai's house. My wavemates already went there ahead of me because I was tsill waiting for bunny then, because the fucking taxi driver was making his move and instead of bringing him to technohub, brought him to Makati instead! I was fuming mad because it was late and there is no way that Makati is similar to UP AYALA TECHNOHUB. I was shouting at bunny because I was so pissed, which is not right and I regret that I did cause I missed the feeling I was yearning for the moment I laid my eyes on him.

Finally, he was able to find his way "near" technohub. I told him I'll just fetch him on a certain spot cause the taxi driver might lead him somewhere else again. I was mad yet again cause I was wearing heels and it was a long walk. But as we walked over the bridge, I couldn't contain my excitement anymore. I embraced him and told him I was sorry because I was just irritable that day.

We went for a commute going to Lalai's place because it was too far and it'll cost us around
200 pesos if we'll take a cab. So, we rode a bus going to fairview then a cab from there up to Lalai's place. Thank God the taxi driver was kind enough to lead us to the right direction.

The party was fun, I didn't drink that much cause I was looking forward to sleeping with bunny later. We were so sleepy by the end of the party and we almost missed our stop if not for Mel. We had a lot of fun eating FroYo over the weekend, dining at eat-all-you-can restos, watching Ninja Assassin, window shopping at greenhills and a lot of fun stuff. Oh my fuck, I almost forgot, we checked in at 4 seasons for a cheaper room but WTH, the effin place was crap! It was so ugly that the CR didn't even have a door and its positioned in front of the bed. The TV was b/w and there was a lot of static. We were supposed to stay there for 24hrs but we immediately changed our minds.

Yesterday, btw, Sogo was so fully booked we had to wait for almost an hour just to get a room! I hate the yuletide season in Manila, it's so not fetch and it's not even festive! Its pure hassle, I can't even feel it, if not for the date, the decors and such. I also hate it when people immediately associate Sogo to sex, cause it shouldn't be. It's a cheap hotel that is why people flock the place. It's not always for couples availing short time pleasure, it's also for people who want to stay for the night. Some place that is clean and cheap, and it practically spells Sogo. It's annoying when people give us the look of suspicion.

I miss my baby already :c A while ago, before he left, I was asking him to stay longer. I wanted to be with him even for a day. I missed hugging him, kissing him, pinching his nose, tickling him and just being with him. How I wish we could go back to the summer of 2009, where everythng was easy and we could be together everyday of our breathing life. I miss my love, I miss him.. I'm so dependent on him that I can't sleep properly without him, that I look for him before I eat, that I dream about him, that I daydream about him.

Two nights ago, I had a very bad dream. Well, its not a dream. It was a nightmare. The dream was more of an everyday life medley, it involved people from different places who began acting weird and weirder that they all knew each other.

To cut the nightmare short, cause I really don't want to talk about it, my hubby was cheating on me with my co-worker. This co-worker of mine is a very quiet one and very shy as well. In my dream, this co-worker was my housemate and I was so shocked as I entered "OUR" room and saw my hubby on the process of putting on his clothes. He was from her bed and not from my bed! I was crying during my dream, he embraced me from my back and told me he was sorry. But as co-worker entered the room, he eagerly left my side and went on to co-worker's bed and they slept together while I was sobbing on my bed, ALONE!

OMG. When I woke up, I was totally sobbing. I was in total distress, I thought everything was real. I had a mild heart attack for I was so stressed with the dream. The thought of it alone makes my heartbeats jump out even if I have my clothes on.

There are dreams that you continue yourself, with your mind fully working after you have awaken out of it. And there are some which inexpicably, that you don't want to even remember. That dream, unfortunately was one of those.

I felt so hurt during my dream, I began acting suspicious of bunny. I didn't want to be the first one to text him during that day. I was waiting for his text, the more I waited, the more paranoid I become.

I hope you realize how much I love you, how much power and spell you have got on me. That still, even in my dreams, you have the power to hurt me.