I'd like to think leaving this space for over a month gave me the much needed enlightenment I was hoping for, I couldn't be more wrong. In my 25 years of existence, I should have known that change takes time. And a month is not enough to make things better, they aren’t. But I’d like to think I’m close, with all the help and support I’m getting from my family, friends and most especially the boyfriend. With this, I can only hope for the best. On to better things!

I celebrated my birthday 2 weeks ago and I was sober 3 days before and after my birthday, now that’s a first! The boyfriend was planning a secret birthday salubong for me, which I eventually found out, and I told him to cancel it. Not that I didn’t want to spend time with friends and get wasted but, I think I’m finally in that age where celebrating one’s birthday is not a big deal anymore. For my birthday, the only thing I wanted to do was eat and shop, and that’s what we did. Couldn’t thank the boyfriend enough for being my walking credit card that day, hahaha!

She's not really fond of heels.

My other sister fixed her hair. Prepping for the ceremony.

My current Apple devices. (iPhone, iPod touch, iPod shuffle)

Something else is already inside.

The food was pricey.

Belgian Champorado

Have you ever had that instance where a family member whose usually older than you are asks you a favor? Of course older people have a certain way of viewing things and they'll think that that favor can be done, easy as 1-2-3 but in reality it will take you some time and effort to do that favor. After a couple of hours, they ask you if you're done and you say you're not then they come getting mad at everyone except you. It's like a sign that you should be finished by that time or else, other people will be damned.

I'm not sure if you have experience this but I always do, whether it be a favor from my parents(most especially) and older relatives. They ask me to go to this place and do this for them, do this letter, do the essay of my cousins, do the assignments of my other cousins and the list goes on and on and fucking on.

Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't want to help but please give me ample time and if you don't like anything about what I'm doing say it straight to my face and don't put your anger out to people that doesn't even concern the situation.