Give Me Something Good To CelebrateMonday, May 19, 2014
I'd like to think leaving this space for over a month gave me the much needed enlightenment I was hoping for, I couldn't be more wrong. In my 25 years of existence, I should have known that change takes time. And a month is not enough to make things better, they aren’t. But I’d like to think I’m close, with all the help and support I’m getting from my family, friends and most especially the boyfriend. With this, I can only hope for the best. On to better things!
I celebrated my birthday 2 weeks ago and I was sober 3 days before and after my birthday, now that’s a first! The boyfriend was planning a secret birthday salubong for me, which I eventually found out, and I told him to cancel it. Not that I didn’t want to spend time with friends and get wasted but, I think I’m finally in that age where celebrating one’s birthday is not a big deal anymore. For my birthday, the only thing I wanted to do was eat and shop, and that’s what we did. Couldn’t thank the boyfriend enough for being my walking credit card that day, hahaha!
My camera was to bulky to lug around so I only have snippets from my phone. Bibi and I went on a series of food adventures during my birthday, and the ones on the collage are some of my favorites. Side note, we tried Banana Leaf and I was utterly disappointed with their food.
I initially got the boyfriend a pair of Air Jordan 4, you know how guys go crazy over shoes. He in turn gave me the same pair but in a different color! I'm not really a fan of sneakers but of course I didn't want to show him I wasn't as excited as he was when he got his own pair, hahaha!
I may not be P100,000 richer this year nor have I invested on a new property but I can say I'm a step closer to realizing what I really want to do. It's difficult, yes. But, is it impossible? Not really. I can't also stay I'm really happy with where I am right now, because I've mentioned several times that this is a terrible place--not knowing where you want to be or what you want to do. I'm just thankful that I have my family, friends and the boyfriend to support me all the way--well, until I find what I'm looking for.
On my birthday, I made a toast to having special friends, a loving family and a very patient and understanding boyfriend. At this age, the most gratifying feeling is finally accepting it's okay not to be okay. It's okay to not have things figured out at this point in your life, because even if you don't, you'll always have people in your life willing to accept you no matter how much of a mess you are.
And to everyone else who took the time to call, text, write a post on my wall on my birthday--thank you! Despite being mean on most of my social media accounts, I'm sincerely grateful to everyone who remembered! Now, back to my regular programming!