Since the boyfriend moved here in the Metro, it's not that difficult for us to see each other often. Unlike when we had a long-distance relationship, monthsaries and anniversaries are mostly spent over the phone or skype exchanging I love you's and tiny tears falling from our faces because of the lack of interpersonal communication.
Cheesy much, I know. But since he moved here, I learned to appreciate how couples who are within each others radar can be such a comfort. Quite honestly, long-distance relationships are hard to maintain. But anyway I'm so over that stage so let me just tell you how we spend time with each other during weekdays. We've had random dates and late celebrations about these events since we don't normally count unless I get mad or crazy about it one way or another. Some photos! I wish I had a gorillapod, working with a 50mm lens is difficult. It really is a poor man's lens.
favorite snack whenever I rant |
When I was promoted as a Trainer, the job didn't actually come with a handbook so I pretty much didn't have any idea what what my gains and misses would be. Apparently, there are more cons than pros and sad to say I only realized that now. But anyway, let me just tell you about our team building during the summer. Everything happened at Bosay Resort in Antipolo.
Before everything else, the photo of the resort was was sent to us and while I looked at it, I said it was pretty okay just like Club Manila East. But to our surprise when we got there. Oh no. The place was crowded, there was unbearable noise coming from all over. Sigh..
The boyf posing after having breakfast |
I want to pose, too! |
I don't see the point of late blog or album posts but since I have one right now that dates back to the Holy Week, It'll somehow have a point. Let's see, uhm, the photos perhaps? Yes, that's it! I'm photodumping here from my Holy Week 2011 album plus some words and captions to go with it. That way, it'll look like a late blog post with sense. Yay! Shut me up. Let me carry on.
Since my mom and dad approved of lovey going home to the province with me every now and then, his visits became a little bit too often so I'm on a down low right now. Gimme a month and we'll go back to the routine. Haha! So last Holy Week, he spent the long weekend over at our house, eating like there's no tomorrow, sleeping and just slacking around.
Breakfast at PG 13 before the bus ride home |
One of our few photos together. Thanks 50mm. |
Since I spent a good 4 years and 2 months in Baguio, when I go there I try to opt for food stalls/restos that I haven't tried before when I was still a student. I know I have a ton of places to go to, that's why Baguio and I will always meet again. But so far, let's wee the places I frequent when I go there. This kind of weather makes me miss Baguio!
First one up is Kamayan sa Baguio, it got very popular among my college friends who frequent Baguio so Lovey and I decided to try it one, hungry afternoon.
The first plate I had |
I'm a seafood lover, alright! |
I hate this feeling. Who wouldn’t? Every time I get into this kind of situation, it makes me want to puke. Throw up everything that I’ve eaten and everything else in between. I know trust should be one of the fundamental ingredients in a relationship along with love and whatever else you have in mind, but, it’s one of the hardest to acquire/maintain/keep in a relationship.
Honestly, I don’t know what the point of this post is that’s why I’m not promoting it to my tumblr. I just want to vent, shout and cry. Almost, always I do it on my own. Just like how I’m doing with this blog. I only have a couple of followers so that’s fine, I’m not naming names anyway since it’s pretty obvious who I’m talking about.
This movie that I’m watching, it’s not helping either. Last Kiss is the title, and it keeps on skipping because it’s pirated. It’s about relationships and how they fail, but then again it also depicts various situations where you have to stand up for something and make things work. I love how this movie shows that it’s difficult, unlike other romantic dramas out there where they give you an idea how things should work out, it’s as if a kiss will iron everything out. But that’s it, aside from that it’s not making me feel any better as of the moment.
Watching western movies break my heart, I feel like it’s easy for them to detach from something or someone with the snap of a finger. Spur of the moment thought, I’m anti divorce because I’m the clingy kind of person. I know it’s a stupid thought and will not necessarily work for everybody, but it’s a spur of the moment thought and may change anytime soon.
OMG, this movie is so mushy; it’s making me breathe really heavy. It has Coldplay in the soundtrack. Can I cry now?
I abhor this feeling with passion. I feel like my heart is about to burst into fucking million pieces and he’s just there, clueless. I’m scared to talk about it. I’m always scared. Especially if he is the problem or he has something to do with the problem. I always think about my problems on my own and everything else that comes my way. That may be the reason why my face looks old and wrinkled. I want to cry. I want to fucking cry right now.
Yeah, maybe I will. I always do. But I’ll do that after I get over with how selfish and stupid I am for not sharing my problem with friends whom I know will understand. Or I can talk to him since it does concern him? Or maybe I’m just going to light up a cigarette, eat my butterscotch and then cry. That’ll be more like Natalie Portman in No Strings Attached sans the driving scene and the confectioner’s sugar around my mouth. Wait, that sounds like a good idea.
PS
I was just done with the movie and I’m teary-eyed right now. Hall and Oates is in the soundtrack as well. WTH, I didn’t realize this was a good movie. I actually like it. Again, subjective thought because my emotions make me like and hate things like that.
PPS
I will have emo posts every once in a while.
After being on hiatus for almost a month, I've decided it's time to come back because I simply miss blogging and I haven't updated my blog for the longest time. Wait, not really because last year I had a hiatus which lasted for 7 mos or so., can't remember but it's longer.
So, moving forward, I have a lot of stories to tell! It was my birthday last month so I also made it a point to spend less time on the innernet, though I missed it so much, so I can make the most out of my birthday. Because honestly, If I were online last May, I would’ve rather spent the month stalking people and downloading porn rather than doing last minute preparations for my 22 before 22 list.
Snap back to where I left off, that was April when I last talked about Dan’s birthdays. 9 days after that was MY birthday! Yay! I had a non-celebratory kind of birthday. Nothing fancy because I had to go to work that day, the boyfran and I tried to make the most out of it. It was a Wednesday and we badly wanted to celebrate right at the date itself so the boyfriend, being the mature and patient one in the relationship suggested that he’s going to wait for me at Starbucks until 12mn so we can be together. Spell effort and I can only think of one person, my boyfriend! Mind you people, he’s on a 7am-4pm shift while I’m on a 10pm-7am shift, so he really had to wait and be awake even if it’s late. It’s not the first time he did that though, before, he used to wait for me for 10 fuckin’ hours just so we can be together. I just realized how much torture it is to wait that long, but he did that. Not once or twice but several times, I have the most patient boyfriend evaaaar! Can I say that again? Hahaha!
Our date was supposed to start at 6pm so we can still watch a movie but I woke up late so I reached Shaw at around 7. I’m so irresponsible I made him wait again.
Photo quality sucks! But I had the best birthday gift so who cares :) |
Phone is old but reliable |
I was browsing through Tumblr when I saw this lovely pair of open-toed pumps. I know there's a small chance it'll be available here in the Phils, but there' a bigger chance that there's totally something that looked like it. So, I was wooing bunny to buy me a pair as a post-anniversary gift. We celebrated our anniversary last December, too late I know, but still manageable as a gift, right? Hahaha!
Before everything went under control, I had to make tampo so I can convince him to buy me a pair and---
I've gots me a new pair of pumps! |
4.5 inches of glory |
Hun and I agreed to sit out Valentine's day. I mean, it's such a cliche and it's everywhere as if it's the only day you can tell someone you love them. I kind of disagree with that philosophy. It's better if you treat everyday as a special day to tell your loved one that he or she is important and loved. Right?
Anyhoo, because of peer pressure I sort of felt obliged to give Bunny a gift. Well I'm weak like that, always giving into peer pressure. I do give him small nothings on random days but I just felt like this one had to be a slight bomb because I didn't get him any present last Christmas. So I got him;
Anyhoo, because of peer pressure I sort of felt obliged to give Bunny a gift. Well I'm weak like that, always giving into peer pressure. I do give him small nothings on random days but I just felt like this one had to be a slight bomb because I didn't get him any present last Christmas. So I got him;
I got him a watch! |
I'd have to stay sorry for flooding almost all of my social networking sites with negative posts and nonsensical rants lately. I know people hate bad vibes but I just can't help it. Seriously, I need friends. So would you mind if I ask you to stick around and listen some more? If yes, thank you and a big hug. If no, screw you bitch!
Aside from the trouble at work, I'm also having boyfriend issues. Yeah, yeah, I know you'll say, "Of course she's having problems yet again!". But, I don't know. At 21, being in a relationship just feels complicated. I always wish we can just go back to college when everything was a lot easier, less complicated.
It also doesn't help that it's Christmastime, which is supposed to be a time for love and forgiveness, is just around the corner. I never hated Christmas, I never wanted to skip Christmas, it was my favorite holiday even if I don't get my wishlist every year. Well, more of even if I have to work for my wish list every year. But the Christmas songs and the decors just won't do this year. Top that with an argument I just had with my mom, we're not talking or anything. Phew, what one hell of a Christmas am I going to have.
After watching Glee's Christmas episode though, I wanted to have the same philosophy as Brittany. I may look stupid but that's fine, at least Christmas will still be magical for me. *sigh*
I can't remember the last time I had put in a rant on this blog for I promised to stay true to my mantra that I should never, ever had BV here in my blog. But I'm sorry I just have to. I know no one likes hearing bad news, what more if it came from someone that you don't really care about. At this point, I don't give a damn, I just want to let this all out 'cause my chest freakin' hurts. Getting drunk seems like the only way to go. So I'm going to do just that.