He was supposed to spend Christmas at our home and I was supposed to spend the new year over at their place. Too bad sudden events and circumstances won't let us do so, but that is so not going to hinder us from celebrating Christmas together. The boyfriend went here in Manila because I wanted to. Loljk. He came down here so we could spend some time and celebrate early christmas together.

Baguio glues us like in a way that being apart from each other for a few weeks leaves us both miserable. It gives me sleepless nights and it makes him cold even in the morning. Hrhr. I'm being too cheesy again, zeh pornstar just wants to tell you how good the week was when he was here. :)

But since I'm too lazy to do so, in a detailed manner. I'll just show you a photo of us during that week. It will speak more than a thousand words, that I'm sure of. <3




See?

I was on the verge of writing something about my 2009 when suddenly I remembered something. I don't have the photos to support my blog. DARN IT. You see, I'm a very visual person, whenever I want to write about something, if there would be pictures to support my statements, i'd put them in. I love reading visual blogs and I want mine to be just like that as well. And it tears my heart apart that I cannot do so because my laptop was reformatted. Crap. Memories erased with the blink of an eye. Anyhoo, I'll still be doing so with photos Im'ma be grabbing from my own online albums. How pathetic, but atleast I'll get to do so.

My list will be a long one, best of the best, worst of the worst and a whole lot. If you we're a part of my 2009, keep it posted. I might just surprise you with my post! Hrhrhr. Happy new year!


                                            (sorry for the crappy photo. I have better ones.:p)

Disclaimer: Don't read further if you're allergic to cheese fest.

It's almost christmas and this is the only time I found to document all that has happened for the past days. Everything has been exhausting, fast but fun. But before everything else, I'd like to say that I'm so sad right now for babylove already departed for Baguio this afternoon and right at this moment he has already arrived.

Okay, so last Friday we had our Apollo Christmas party over at Lalai's house. My wavemates already went there ahead of me because I was tsill waiting for bunny then, because the fucking taxi driver was making his move and instead of bringing him to technohub, brought him to Makati instead! I was fuming mad because it was late and there is no way that Makati is similar to UP AYALA TECHNOHUB. I was shouting at bunny because I was so pissed, which is not right and I regret that I did cause I missed the feeling I was yearning for the moment I laid my eyes on him.

Finally, he was able to find his way "near" technohub. I told him I'll just fetch him on a certain spot cause the taxi driver might lead him somewhere else again. I was mad yet again cause I was wearing heels and it was a long walk. But as we walked over the bridge, I couldn't contain my excitement anymore. I embraced him and told him I was sorry because I was just irritable that day.

We went for a commute going to Lalai's place because it was too far and it'll cost us around
200 pesos if we'll take a cab. So, we rode a bus going to fairview then a cab from there up to Lalai's place. Thank God the taxi driver was kind enough to lead us to the right direction.

The party was fun, I didn't drink that much cause I was looking forward to sleeping with bunny later. We were so sleepy by the end of the party and we almost missed our stop if not for Mel. We had a lot of fun eating FroYo over the weekend, dining at eat-all-you-can restos, watching Ninja Assassin, window shopping at greenhills and a lot of fun stuff. Oh my fuck, I almost forgot, we checked in at 4 seasons for a cheaper room but WTH, the effin place was crap! It was so ugly that the CR didn't even have a door and its positioned in front of the bed. The TV was b/w and there was a lot of static. We were supposed to stay there for 24hrs but we immediately changed our minds.

Yesterday, btw, Sogo was so fully booked we had to wait for almost an hour just to get a room! I hate the yuletide season in Manila, it's so not fetch and it's not even festive! Its pure hassle, I can't even feel it, if not for the date, the decors and such. I also hate it when people immediately associate Sogo to sex, cause it shouldn't be. It's a cheap hotel that is why people flock the place. It's not always for couples availing short time pleasure, it's also for people who want to stay for the night. Some place that is clean and cheap, and it practically spells Sogo. It's annoying when people give us the look of suspicion.

I miss my baby already :c A while ago, before he left, I was asking him to stay longer. I wanted to be with him even for a day. I missed hugging him, kissing him, pinching his nose, tickling him and just being with him. How I wish we could go back to the summer of 2009, where everythng was easy and we could be together everyday of our breathing life. I miss my love, I miss him.. I'm so dependent on him that I can't sleep properly without him, that I look for him before I eat, that I dream about him, that I daydream about him.

For the lack of an internet connection at my abode in Manila, I cannot update my blog that often. I know I have to remind myself to buy that USB thing for checking and updating things, cause I practically live online. Anyhoo, this post as expected is a late one. Nevertheless, it still has its essence. Or so I think. Hrhrhr.

Ooops! I did it again

I had my first call today. It was exhausting. Why? Because my heart was beating non-stop all the time, my palms were sweaty and my feet uneasy. I practically knew that I'll be getting an easy call because God has been good to me the past few days. The thing is, I didn't suck with the call, I didn't do that great either. Just like the VA assessment, I know I could've done better, but my stupidity got ahead of me.

I know what we're doing is an easy job yet I failed to "bring it" a while ago. I feel a bit frustrated, I could've talked slower or pronounced the words bolder for the customer. The customer was even trying to build rapport with me, why wasn't I responsive? Because I was friggin' nervous. I suck, I know. I'll do better next time, I just want to say that it's not true when they say that the first call is always bad, cause it isn't. It's just not great. *grin*

Reminiscing the Past

Tomorrow is going to be UPB's infamous Pasiklaban. From the moment I fell in love with Baguio, this is going to be the first time that I wont be able to attend the event. I could've just went up there and had some fun, but I can't. I have to be responsible now because I'm an adult already, and adults don't file leaves or make an absence for the sake of a school tradition. Its heartbreaking for me, not to go there and not be able to reminisce good times with my friends, but I have to move on.

Moving on is always hard, not only at first but forever. There will always be a part of you that will wish that somehow, you can bring back the old time. I'm a very sentimental person and I'm emotional like that.

It really is heartbreaking, did I even say that a while ago? My future is at stake here and I know I can always go back to my Alma Mater even if it is not Pasiklaban or Tagis Lakas or what have you. I can always go back and reminisce the good times, sit at the lobby and have fun with my friends. Eat mangga with bagoong and suka while criticizing girls with bad fashion sense. Joining my friends over at sunshine park while talking about grueling school work. Oh God, I miss college yet again. :,) I wonder when's the reunion?

I've been through a lot for the past month. Struggling with the change of job and the vacation. Mid-life crisis keeps on getting in the way and mishaps with The Boyfriend. I've been on hiatus for almost the whole of November and early start of December. Here's what happened to zeh Porn Star. Just so you know.

Jumping on the bandwagon

Okay. Here goes nothing. I decided to give in and join the bandwagon of the call center industry. I figured and learned about a lot of things. First is that, the call center industry is not that bad. As long as you still aim for success, it won't be. I don't want to be an agent forever, I am actually eyeing for another position which is the voice and accent trainer. I soooo love what the VA people are doing. Second is that, I am in a very good company. IBM spell years of excellence and innovation. Amongst the call centers that I was planning to apply to, it struck me the most. Even if the pay is not that high, the organization of the company will satisfy your craving for a foundation that is worth staying for. Third is, the kind of people that I'm with makes me want to stay here for the entirety of my career-building stage. I'm so glad God has blessed me with cheerful and good co-workers. It is true when they say that, sometimes when you don't like your job, its the company of your friends that's going to make you stay.


Laptop Mishap

Because of all the porn and the movies that I have downloaded from torrent, my laptop crashed. When I saw the blue screen, I immediately thought that maybe just maybe, its just one of those problems wherein you restart the laptop and after a few seconds it'll be okay again. Apparently, its not. I went to the repair shop for the warranty and firmly instructed the receiver to NOT reformat the laptop unless needed. I also told him to INFORM me if ever he will be reformatting the laptop. I gave him my number and the password of the laptop, and reiterated again and again to NOT reformat the laptop.

A few days after that, they texted me and said that the problem was fixed and I can already get my laptop. I went home and like a giddy little girl separated from her ice cream, I was also giddy for my laptop. I presented the receipt and inspected the laptop. I turned it on and saw a reformatted screen. No files, no application, no everything. My whole world crashed and asked them if 'maybe', they have exchanged it for another. But no. It is my laptop. I freaked out and angrily shouted at the man standing in front of me. I told him to explain and he brought me their manager.

The manager told me that there were no clear instructions about not doing a reformat on the laptop and with all due respect, I told the manager to recover ALL my files then I went away.

I came back a week after to get my laptop but all they managed to recover was 4GB worth of photos. And they told me they've managed to recover 75% of my files? There wasn't even a single word file in it, or an audio file, much more a video file. I was so disappointed but I said nothing. Apparently, their software cannot retrieve as much files because it is not updated. What the FUCK!

Ang akin lang, wag mong galawin ang hindi mo kayang ibalik sa dati. PUTA.

Hrhrhrhr. A lot has happened to me, see? Thank God The Boyfriend is coming over on the weekend to visit me. Cheers to that. Thank you for keeping my sanity, love.