Yes. I think 2010 will be a good year for my project 365, I do think it will help keep me sane, disciplined and organized. I'll be starting the year with my project. It was supposed to be done in flickr, but since I find flickr uninteresting, I'll be doing it here. Maybe post some on multiply, or if I get crazy put it on flickr as well. I'll never know. I also think I'm too scared for photo comments which might hurt my ego. Yeah, I'm sensitive like that. I want to keep everything to myself, my self-absorbed self.

For the meantime, lemme enlighten you on what the Project 365 is all about. The first time I saw it was on Helga Weber's photo stream. I was curious, yeah. I always thought I didn't have time for it, but this year, I am going to make time. I believe I'm going from pro-active to passive, and I don't like that. Not a bit. So just click on the link to find out more of the Project 365.

As for me, I'm planning to do 365 days of Self-Portraits. Not because it's a cliche, but because it's easier to work on photo with the subject readily available. And, that's me! Who else? So it will be, 365 days of Zeh Pornstar. Wow, hot. Hrhrhrhr.

Tonight will be the start of our nesting period. I don't know if it's just me or I need more of training. I have listened well to the trainer's discussion's and have done averagely well with the assessments as well. I do hope I get to practice what I've been trying to learn for the past few weeks. C'mon gimme the lucky beans, puhlease.

He was supposed to spend Christmas at our home and I was supposed to spend the new year over at their place. Too bad sudden events and circumstances won't let us do so, but that is so not going to hinder us from celebrating Christmas together. The boyfriend went here in Manila because I wanted to. Loljk. He came down here so we could spend some time and celebrate early christmas together.

Baguio glues us like in a way that being apart from each other for a few weeks leaves us both miserable. It gives me sleepless nights and it makes him cold even in the morning. Hrhr. I'm being too cheesy again, zeh pornstar just wants to tell you how good the week was when he was here. :)

But since I'm too lazy to do so, in a detailed manner. I'll just show you a photo of us during that week. It will speak more than a thousand words, that I'm sure of. <3




See?

I was on the verge of writing something about my 2009 when suddenly I remembered something. I don't have the photos to support my blog. DARN IT. You see, I'm a very visual person, whenever I want to write about something, if there would be pictures to support my statements, i'd put them in. I love reading visual blogs and I want mine to be just like that as well. And it tears my heart apart that I cannot do so because my laptop was reformatted. Crap. Memories erased with the blink of an eye. Anyhoo, I'll still be doing so with photos Im'ma be grabbing from my own online albums. How pathetic, but atleast I'll get to do so.

My list will be a long one, best of the best, worst of the worst and a whole lot. If you we're a part of my 2009, keep it posted. I might just surprise you with my post! Hrhrhr. Happy new year!


                                            (sorry for the crappy photo. I have better ones.:p)

Disclaimer: Don't read further if you're allergic to cheese fest.

It's almost christmas and this is the only time I found to document all that has happened for the past days. Everything has been exhausting, fast but fun. But before everything else, I'd like to say that I'm so sad right now for babylove already departed for Baguio this afternoon and right at this moment he has already arrived.

Okay, so last Friday we had our Apollo Christmas party over at Lalai's house. My wavemates already went there ahead of me because I was tsill waiting for bunny then, because the fucking taxi driver was making his move and instead of bringing him to technohub, brought him to Makati instead! I was fuming mad because it was late and there is no way that Makati is similar to UP AYALA TECHNOHUB. I was shouting at bunny because I was so pissed, which is not right and I regret that I did cause I missed the feeling I was yearning for the moment I laid my eyes on him.

Finally, he was able to find his way "near" technohub. I told him I'll just fetch him on a certain spot cause the taxi driver might lead him somewhere else again. I was mad yet again cause I was wearing heels and it was a long walk. But as we walked over the bridge, I couldn't contain my excitement anymore. I embraced him and told him I was sorry because I was just irritable that day.

We went for a commute going to Lalai's place because it was too far and it'll cost us around
200 pesos if we'll take a cab. So, we rode a bus going to fairview then a cab from there up to Lalai's place. Thank God the taxi driver was kind enough to lead us to the right direction.

The party was fun, I didn't drink that much cause I was looking forward to sleeping with bunny later. We were so sleepy by the end of the party and we almost missed our stop if not for Mel. We had a lot of fun eating FroYo over the weekend, dining at eat-all-you-can restos, watching Ninja Assassin, window shopping at greenhills and a lot of fun stuff. Oh my fuck, I almost forgot, we checked in at 4 seasons for a cheaper room but WTH, the effin place was crap! It was so ugly that the CR didn't even have a door and its positioned in front of the bed. The TV was b/w and there was a lot of static. We were supposed to stay there for 24hrs but we immediately changed our minds.

Yesterday, btw, Sogo was so fully booked we had to wait for almost an hour just to get a room! I hate the yuletide season in Manila, it's so not fetch and it's not even festive! Its pure hassle, I can't even feel it, if not for the date, the decors and such. I also hate it when people immediately associate Sogo to sex, cause it shouldn't be. It's a cheap hotel that is why people flock the place. It's not always for couples availing short time pleasure, it's also for people who want to stay for the night. Some place that is clean and cheap, and it practically spells Sogo. It's annoying when people give us the look of suspicion.

I miss my baby already :c A while ago, before he left, I was asking him to stay longer. I wanted to be with him even for a day. I missed hugging him, kissing him, pinching his nose, tickling him and just being with him. How I wish we could go back to the summer of 2009, where everythng was easy and we could be together everyday of our breathing life. I miss my love, I miss him.. I'm so dependent on him that I can't sleep properly without him, that I look for him before I eat, that I dream about him, that I daydream about him.