Dear Future Self

Wednesday, May 06, 2015

Dear, Future Self. I hope one day you realize that life at twenty-something isn't so terrible after all. You win some, and you lose a lot. And that's not bad. I hope when you look back at all the mistakes you've made, the only thing that would resonate on your face is a smile, the warm kind of smile. The kind of smile that makes you wonder why you did those things but feeling happy and quite content nonetheless because you learned a lot along the way. I hope that you finally understand what all the pain is all about. I hope you recognize that no matter how tough it gets, the people who love you will always be there--no matter what. Lastly, I hope you finally learn how to love yourself. 

That was dramatic, lol. But I meant every word of it. I had one of the simplest yet happiest birthday celebration a couple of days ago. I ended up going to a spontaneous beach trip and I was also able to celebrate with family and friends, yay! My phone was ringing non-stop and I was annoyed like hell but then I realized just how much these people care to let me know they remembered my special day. I also got five different birthday cakes and I don't know how to consume them all because they're all my favorites! I was also surprised three times, so I guess it does help that I blog about the things that I want to happen as a subtle reminder to concerned parties, haha! I've mentioned several times that I loooooove surprises, so, you can only imagine how happy I am upon getting three albeit looking crappy and all because I wasn't prepared. Note to self, look good at all times on my next birthday in case of surprises, lol. 


My birthday was all about glorious food! I ate like a viking while looking like a Victoria's Secret Angel, uhm, not. Hahaha! Also had a mini Korean feast at home! I want to thank everyone who made my birthday extraordinarily uncomplicated. I won't mention names because you know who you are. Thank you for all the effort, the love and the care. I will forever be grateful. 

As a conclusion, getting old isn't growing old after all. I had fun blowing my sparkling candles, almost cried because of all the surprises and fell asleep with a full heart, not to mention a full tummy. I was also sober before and after my birthday, just like last year! I think that's a milestone for an alcoholic like me...kidding! About me being alcoholic of course. I think I'm using that as an excuse because in reality, I'm just getting old--too old to get drunk on my birthday. HAHA! Okay, enough. In short, I guess I really want to say this has been one of the most delightful birthdays I've ever had. I want to extend my deepest gratitude to everyone who made it possible. I'll see you again next year for a fun-filled day full of drama and realizations, meh.

Photos of me by Paul Pastoral and Ian Ted Mejia. 

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12 comments

  1. Happy beerday, Madame! Painom ka na!

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    1. I'm avoiding alcohol nga eh! Thank youuu!

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  2. I loved the first paragraph. Reminds me so much of myself when I was trying to make it in the Corporate world. It is indeed true when they say things do get better. The sooner you realize that, the sooner you become a happier person.

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  3. Good luck on your journey! We're here to support you all the way.

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  4. Sino si Paul Pastoral? Wala naman kayong common friends sa Facebook.

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    1. The only reason I ask is because ngayon lang sya nagka-appearance sa blog mo, and I know this is not your friend from College, lels. I religiously follow you online in a not-so-creepy way naman.

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    2. Please don't be creeped out. I'm asking in a non-threatening way. *cracks knuckles*

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    3. And FYI lang, I know Ian Ted is your housemate.

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