Collide. Will elaborate next time. Gotta go.

I Miss You would be an understatement. I want to ravage you-- might be a little too overboard. I want you is demure but deeply empty. I don't know the exact words that i would want to send right at this moment of solitude. I kept thinking about you the whole day, trying to figure out the perfect words to match the mementos. But I just can't think of any, your too damn perfect for the slangs in my vocabulary. Instead, I'll just keep you in my thoughts and not in words. In words you might miss something, but in my thoughts, all you'll have is to run into another you <3

I'm emotional like that. Long-distance relationship just won't work for me. I can clearly see it all slipping away. Out of sight is out of mind, I think that quote applies to him. A relationship that has been built with love, passion, usual talks and random dates, camps and sleepover's. Its going to the sewer. All of it. He's changing, but I don't feel the same. I still am attached to him, just like before. Just like I used to. I don't know what's happening. I always told myself never let it slip away. But now? God help me.

Or should I say, Im everything THEY'RE not? Men as a whole are self-absorbed, insentive, fickle-minded biatches. They cannot, ever, stick to one person nor stay loyal to one for the rest of their lives. C'mon guys, now is the time to admit it. Stand up and raise you fuckin' hands. 

I cannot sleep. Maybe because Im angry. NOT! Im pissed! Gravely pissed. The crisp cold won't help either. Im here, staring into nothingness. Pondering over the thought that has kept my mind awake all these hours. 

I saw a message which you initiated, and you always said you're the shy type. Then I saw another again, it felt like a very fined needle just passed through my nimble heart. I never wanted to describe the hurt I get whenever I witness how you break me to pieces. But its the only way on how I can ease the pain. 

Im tired of this setup. Maybe you'll get tired and leave me as well, soon. I know you're bored, I know you're looking for something new. I know you're looking for spontaneity and adventure. I've tried my best to give you a combination, but you always seem to like another. I'm tired. 

Maybe one day I'll just walk out on you. On my way, I'll be picking up the pieces that has always led me to your heart. 

She's gone far enough to make me do this. I hope she rots in hell.